Thursday, October 22, 2009


”Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge Him,
and He will make your paths straight”
Proverbs 3:5-6

It's so hard sometimes to understand why bad things happen to good people. The past few months have been pretty hard. I have at times questioned why God would chose for certain people to go through things or bear the burden of so much at one time. The past few months have brought some horrible news from a few of our loved ones. I haven't said much cause I really didn't know what to say or how to say it. I am not a good writer by any means but if you know me well enough I do have a big heart and I tend to let things bother me emotionally. I hate to see anyone hurting or in pain. I remember as a kid we would be driving somewhere and if I happened to see an animal dead in the road I would cry and feel so bad. Although I don't cry anymore when I see an animal dead in the street, that still child like heart comes out when I hear or see bad things happening and I have a hard time dealing. I feel like I need to be there and try and fix everything . I guess I got that from my Mothers side of the family.

What do you say to a family going through so much all at one time. Why would God chose this family to go through so much and not me? Why would he allow me to have a healthy baby, and yet not someone else? Why would he chose for my husbands father to have cancer and not mine? I don't have the answer for these tuff questions.

I do know that God allows things to happen for HIS reasons, whether or not we understand them. Above all, however, we must remember that God is good, just, loving and merciful. Often things happen to us that we simply can't and understand. Instead of doubting God's goodness, our reaction should be to trust him. Not just say you trust him but REALLY trust him. I think alot of times when your not the one going through trials it's pretty easy to say that you trust God, but when your the one in despair and your world is rocked it's alot easier to doubt that trust.

After this week I remembered a video that I saw about a year ago that really made me think and really encouraged me. Although I have never had to go through anything like this in my life it was very uplifting to watch. I'm sure some of you are familiar with this story and may have already seen this video. For anyone who hasn't I recommend watching it.

It is long, but I recommend taking the time to watch it. It will cause you to live differently. You will hug your kids differently. You will love your spouse differently. You will trust God differently.

Smith Family Story from Cross Point Church on Vimeo.

To read more about their story you can visit Angie's blog here.

I would like to ask you to pray for me. Pray for our friends who are going through so much and for the long journey ahead. Pray for them to find the strength to get through this bump in their lives. Pray for them and their child to have peace and a fighting spirit. If God was able to create this child he is also able to heal this child.

Please also pray for my father in law who is also battling. Please pray that when he goes back in December for his results that we get good news.

Thanks to all of you who actually read down this far :)


Courtney said...

I will be watching that video later, but your post is beautiful and I am so blessed to have a best friend with a heart like yours and everyday I learn so much from you...I will pray for your friends & Johnnys Dad Love You!

Michelle Bradley said...

Praying right now.

Bridget said...

I would love to lend you the book I just finished by my favorite.....(you guessed it) Ken Ham:)
How Could A Loving God?
It has powerful answers on suffering and loss. I love how he explains it and uses scripture.
I am praying for your friends son and your FIL. You do have a big heart and always have. Love you!

Heather said...

What a powerful video! I will be praying for you, your friends, and family in everything you are all going through. I always say that everything happens for a reason, and only God knows that reason! We might not understand it right now, but we will eventually understand.

Deb Tracey said...

Awe Brianna, I know exactly how you feel. amen to it all. I haven't checked in on you in awhile and I just love all you're doing. That little Aven is a total DOLL. I will keep you and your loved ones in my prayers. I have asked this question myself, barely knowing how to come to terms with such bad news too. I'm in total denial. One of my closest friends, the one who, through Christ, brought John and I to Him, has recently been given 6 to 9 months to live. I've been telling God that she has so much more work to do. 4 children to see growp and marry someday and a husband who looks heartbroken and as if the weight of his witty world is upon him. I'm right there with you, wondering why not us. love you Brianna and give my love to Johnny and Aven. deb