Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Why my house will never be perfect with children..

Mother, O Mother, come shake out your cloth,
Empty the dustpan, poison the moth,
Hang out the washing, make up the bed,
Sew on a button and butter the bread.

Where is the mother whose house is so shocking?
She's up in the nursery, blissfully rocking.

Oh, I've grown as shiftless as Little Boy Blue,
Lullabye, rockabye, lullabye loo.
Dishes are waiting and bills are past due
Pat-a-cake, darling, and peek, peekaboo

The shopping's not done and there's nothing for stew
And out in the yard there's a hullabaloo
But I'm playing Kanga and this is my Roo
Look! Aren't his eyes the most wonderful hue?
Lullabye, rockaby lullabye loo.

The cleaning and scrubbing can wait till tomorrow
But children grow up as I've learned to my sorrow.
So quiet down cobwebs; Dust go to sleep!
I'm rocking my baby and babies don't keep.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Prayer for Berlyn

Little did I know that only 5 months after writing this post that everything I wrote in that post would be tested.

Last weekend I took Berlyn for an small eye infection, when the doctor was checking her he asked me how her heart was. Why would he be asking me about her heart if I was here for her eye? He told me that it sounded abnormal and we would need to do some further testing. He sent her over for an xray right away and told me I should follow up with a specialist for an EKG. I was completely shocked and forgot all about the real reason I even went in. My sister went through this same thing with her daughter and I was pretty sure that this would be another case and they would tell me it would be something she would grow out of.

I called today to make the appointment just to rule out anything being wrong. I didn't expect them to tell me I should drive down today to bring her in and get checked out. I immediately called my Grandma to go with me knowing that if something bad were to happen I wanted someone there with me and to be able to have two ears.

The doctor came in who was super nice. He began listening to her heart and took awhile doing so. Seemed like the few minutes he was listening was lasting a lifetime. I was trying to read his expressions to see if this was going to be good or bad news. He said that he found an abnormality and wanted to go in the other room to take a better look. I just knew from that moment things weren't going to be good. I immediately wanted to stop right there and just cry but I bit my lip and went in.

After looking at her heart for about a half hour he told me that she has a condition called Aortic Stenosis and she has to go in on Tuesday for a procedure on her valve to try and enlarge it. Pretty much everything he said after that I was in a daze and tried to take as much information in as I could and not breakdown. I just looked at the doctor thinking HOW?! How could this be happening to my child who is sitting here asleep next to me looking so peaceful? As soon as he shut the door I broke down and cried. My Grandma tried to be strong for me but we both just sat and looked at her and cried.

I know things could be way worse. My baby is alive and breathing and before today I had no clue that anything was wrong with her. Before today I knew not one thing about a heart besides that it pumped blood. I had no idea when I woke up this morning I would have had a lesson in cardiology and be searching online what Aortic Stenosis was. It goes to show how your life can change in the matter of minutes.

As I am writing this she is laying in my lap fast asleep. On the outside she is so perfect yet that little heart inside her is struggling. As much as I want to be angry and question why this is happening to my baby and my family I can only trust that God is in control.

I know from the minute I found out I was pregnant with her that God had big plans for her life and I know that to still be true.

Please pray for her that everything will go well and that I will have the strength to get through this week and that day. I know she is in the best care that she can be and I know that above all she is in Gods hands.

”Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge Him,
and He will make your paths straight”
Proverbs 3:5-6

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Happy St. Patrick's Day

Beach Day

I was getting so tired of the gloomy rainy weather the past few weekends and I was so excited to finally have a weekend where it was nice.

I called my sister (Aven & Berlyn's 2nd Mom) on Monday and told her that we are taking OUR kids to the beach cause I needed to get out of the house and maybe get some color on this body. Nothing is better than being able to sit and watch your child play and actually be able to relax...well for a little while at least.

"Mom, why can't I pick up and eat everything that is on the ground?"

This child has no fear at all. I figured he would be too scared of the water and not want to go near it..... WRONG. Once he finally realized it was water and he was free to run toward it he did. I got tired of trying to chase after him and finally let a wave hit him. It knocked him down and he got right back up wanting some more. I had to pull this kid away kicking and screaming to get him out of the water.
Berlyn enjoying her first day at the beach in the nice ocean breeze.

Aven not enjoying the ocean breeze as much as his sister.

Checking to see if there are any hot babes that want to help build a sand castle :)

And even more sleeping by Berlyn. I'm pretty sure she didn't even know we went to the beach. haha

All the hard playing and trying to get away from Mommy wore someone out.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

1 Month old

I can't believe it's been a month since I last posted....well I guess I can. I have been keeping busy trying to spend as much time with the kids before I go back working. Which is March 25th. I will still be working from home but I know this will mean less time to do alot of the stuff I've been doing now. So my time has been spent as much as I can with them. I'm not quite sure how I'm going to pull it all off but I guess we will see when the time comes.

I've started to get adjusted to life with two little ones. Most my days are spent changing diapers and feeding and trying to fit in a shower or go to the bathroom without having company :) Who wouldn't want this kind of company following your around all day though?

Being a Mom is probably the tuffest job I'll ever have but it's the most rewarding job I'll ever have too. I thought the time went fast when I had Aven but it seems to go twice as fast when you add another one into the mix. I wake up some mornings and think how could a month have gone by so fast?!?!

Berlyn has been such a good baby for me. She loves to eat and loves to sleep.

When she is awake which is not very often she loves for Mommy to talk to her and loves to smile.

She is getting bigger and bigger everyday. I really wish time could freeze still and let me enjoy them being little for longer :( Hopefully I will be able to update a little more often than once a month.